Exposing the Lies: The Power of Persistence

 

Being a victim of narcissistic abuse causes so much damage, in so many different ways.  Even people who offer you support and comfort, don't really understand the deep wounds and how hard it is to heal from them. Narcissistic abuse changes the way you think, the ways you react, your confidence in yourself, affects your health, and is very painful to heal from. This list goes on and on. 

I spent almost 9 years ignoring my gut instincts and intuition. I was gaslit into believing that it was ME that had the problem.  I was too sensitive. I was overreacting. I was bringing issues from prior relationships. You name it - he said it. He also manipulated me into never trying to discuss my concerns by raging and giving me the silent treatment every time I did. It became easier to say nothing at all. 

When I finally hit the wall - my health was suffering, I could no longer function as myself, and I had become a literal empty shell of a person. I had to make the decision to end the abuse.... but what happened next is something I could've never prepared for.

In order to begin healing, you have to accept the reality of who and what they are.  The man I had fallen in love with and twisted my entire existence to please - wasn't real at all.  My entire marriage was lies. He lied about absolutely everything, without exaggeration.  Imagine having to realize that not only was your marriage a sham - but that you don't even know the person you're married to.  The feeling is literally sickening. 

The more I started to come out of the fog - the more lies I uncovered. It was so much that I literally felt like I was losing my mind. I got physically ill. That cell phone that he kept so secretive yet there was "nothing on it"? The phone that was always on vibrate and always face down? The phone that he would not ONCE let me look at because it was "an invasion of his privacy"? Yeah. My intuition told me that there were things going on behind my back and turns out -I was not wrong. I spent almost 9 years being gaslit to believe that it was my insecurities.  Ya know what?  It wasn't.  I was right all along. He was lying and cheating on me the entire time.

I fully believe that one of the reasons he's managed to continue his abuse throughout his life is that no one before me has spoken up about it.  If I had heard even some of these things about him early into our relationship - I would've walked away, or at a minimum checked into it. Unfortunately - that didn't happen.  Now I am digging myself out of the destruction, piece by piece and day by day.

What's happened now, though, is that I'm speaking up.  A narcissist is a pathological psychopath and lies to EVERYONE. The smear campaign that he launched against me years ago, and the one he continues to this day - are comical to me now. None of what he's told people has any truth or merit and those that want to believe him - peace out. I will not defend myself. 

There comes a day in a narcissist's life when they abuse the wrong person. When they target and destroy someone that refuses to give up and stay silent. That someone is me. God is protecting me and has given me purpose. I will not sit idly by while he continues to abuse me and look the other way.  Since he cannot abuse me emotionally anymore - he's resorted to financial abuse. He's trying to manipulate the courts, evade accountability, and maintain control over my life with the constant games. 

A narcissist's arrogance sets their own downfall in motion. They are the smartest person in the room - just ask them. They lie about things that are so easily proven, because they are accustomed to no one standing up and challenging them.  

I am persistent in my mission to save my own life, my dogs, my home, and my credit.  I have exposed his lies and will continue to tell the truth. Not because I'm vindictive like he tells everyone, but because I am an honest, hard-working, loving, loyal woman who didn't deserve the abuse and will no longer tolerate it. 

Stay persistent - I promise you won't regret it. 




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